Fire Nightmare

On Sunday there was a horrible fire in North Auburn and boy was it scary. I will start from the beginning..I met a "new" guy for lunch, don't worry he was not the ONE. We met at Chevy's, a common ground for both of us. I'm not going to say it was the worst date I have ever been on but really where are all the non weird guys. Well this guy was odd, he hardly talked and was okay with that and for 38 he was pretty immature. Can't a girl find a guy who is over their ex's, geesh. So back to my story, we were leaving Chevy's an hour and a half later when I saw this huge cloud of black smoke (means structure fire), stomach turned to knots and I wanted to throw up. I knew that it was close to my house based on the smoke. I said goodbye to this "new" guy that was already "old" and left for my house. I called my mom, freaking out that I would not make it home to get my cat. At that point 49 was moving slow and I was having a hard time getting to my road...driving half in the lane and half on the dirt, I blew past all the fire trucks on my road. I made it home just in time to be told to evacuate, I told them I would just be a minute and ran for the cat, computer and new camera. In the 5 minutes it took to catch the cat the fire was already close to the house. I throw everything I could into the car and ran for the safe zone. I continued to pray that everything would still be standing when the nightmare ended. I went to my mom's and started watching the news, boy was it on every channel. On the channel we were watching it was showing neighborhoods that were a total loss, at that point I realized it was my grandparent neighborhood. I immediately began calling family looking for my grandparents, no one knew anything except that they were not home when this nightmare started. Eventually my dad went up to the neighborhood and I was right everything was a total loss. Where had the fire fighter been, how do you lose 60 houses in under an hour?

My Most Favorite Quote Ever....

"We cross our bridges when we come to them and burn them behind us, with nothing to show for our progress except a memory of the smell of smoke, and the presumption that once our eyes watered."~Tom Stoppard Reid

Dating....Why is it so hard?

I would like to understand why I have had such a bad or horrible streak in dating....I have literally tried everything. And I really mean everything blind dates, online dating, set-ups, you name it I have tried it and still no man. My friend Julie says I am way too picky and I need to lower my standards so. My phlosophy is "why have standards then?" am I right? I guess I do have so serious standards, I guess I have been hurt a few too many times, starting at a very young age. Again Julie in her wise drunk state aways tells me "I wont ever be happy because I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop." She is true on part of that, but she is doing the same thing. So she is really just the pot calling the kettle black. I just want to be happy, I need to find a guy that just gets me, who will put up with my strange moods because I would be more then willing to do the same. I have stories that would make most people laugh and some cry, a few would probably doubt that those things could ever happen to one person. I've dated guys with no manners, and that bearly lasted the date. I dated a married guy...no I did not know he was married until his wife called the day before my birthday. I was engaged once and caught him cheating. I broke up with a guy only to have KARMA smack me in the face 4 years later. I went out on a date with a guy who had 5 DUI's and wondered why I had a problem with it. I dated guys in the Air Force, National Guards and the Army, thought I would work my way around the armed forces. I dated a guy who thought he could control me...like that could happen! I dated a guy who played the piano over the phone until I fell asleep each night but religion got in the way...boy was he hot. I cant forget my best friend who I loved with all my heart but we never seemed to figure the timing out. What standards, do I really have any? Maybe sometime I will share these stories they are all so funny and so very sweet.

6 for Sunday

Here are 6 things about me all because it's Sunday....
1.I love to do laundry but HATE to wash my car :)
2.From the age of 8 to 15, I was raised by my mom and her Japanese-American boyfriend. I ate so many weird foods growing up but boy am I good with chopsticks.
3.I have only lived in 2 towns my entire life....Auburn and Grass Valley. Wow right.
4.I can send hours in a books store. I love the way new books smell.
5.Starbucks whip cream makes the roof of my mouth slimy.
6.I have had the same best friend for 28 years and I miss her very much, especially right now.

I have shared mine now what are yours?

I'm Coming Out.....

So this is weird to me, everyone I know has a blog and important life moments to share. My friends laugh at me because i lurk on their blogs and don't have one of my own....so here it goes...I am coming out of the shadow and becoming known. I hope you are happy. I will know be able to comment on your blog and share my thoughts and ideas with you. So this is my moment, my catilian of sorts however without the ugly dress and long white gloves and really silly dance with feathers (Thanks, Gilmore Girls for that perspective). About me I'm a protector of all, in the words of my friends son, "are you a kid cop...do you put kids in jail?" In the grand vision of things yes I do. I'm single, sometimes by choice (the pickings are slim in this small town) and other times I wish I was married with 3 kids living the fairytale. My adventure in dating has been rough to say the least more on that later, boy do I have great stories. I live with a cat that thinks she is a dog. I love her more then anything. She is my therapist and yes at times my best friend and pillow....my cuddle bunny. I just turned 30 in May and felt like it was a turning point in my life, my 20's sucked so much pain and heartache I was glad to be over them. I learned a lot about myself though and now I love who I am. I can't wait to see what my 30's have to offer.....my view on 30 is "it can't get much worse so bring it on!" But really so far..... so good. So I hope you all are happy....I have now come out!!!!!